Thursday, January 22, 2009 @ 20:40
life
warning: another depressing post):
i read newspaper this morning
and there is a review of this movie
'snakes and earrings'
iv wanted to watch this movie for a very long time
but now i'm not sure quite what to do
because i'm afraid of what gonna happen after i watch
it's about alternative lifestyle
a girl and a punk
its about tattoo, violence and sex
but why am i afraid?
its because i'm 18
hormones rushing through very single part of my body
i lost my own self and i don't know what kind of a person i will become
uncertainty hurts like hell
i'm going for surgery tomorrow
my heart says ' im scared'
but i start to understand the silliness of people who cut themselves
physical pain sometimes remind people,
that 'they are still alive'
'i am still breathing'
i found one quote from the movie that strikes me
it is questions
what reminds you of your existence
what reminds that you are still alive as a person, not just a human being
what is that?
mood: getting high
