Sunday, February 08, 2009 @ 22:37
18
it's a prime of your life. or the worst moment?
being 18.
all the hormones. all the needs. all the desire to be wanted.
to be fulfilled. to be loved
my life was getting itslef settled last year in singapore.
its was year that i feel like i could stop searching for
something that was missing. i have good friends
good life. and things went well. though it was an ordinary one
it was alrite. i was happy.
then. everything falls apart. i have to start from zero here in Bangkok
it isnt that bad. but it takes time. it takes time to build up yr contact lists
in yr mobile. it takes time to build a relationship
i feel like i was living in a dream when i was in singapore. u can imagine life
without parents nagging. ultimate freedom. circles of friends. superb education.
but now i woke up from that dream, and i am facing the truth of life
bangkok is different. financial factor becomes important.
looks and appearance count. parents come in. all the family problems
and relationship...
i dun know which position i am in. i dun know wud role to play here. i have thought that
sex and all the human contacts can make you fulfilled, can give you a sense of belonging
maybe im just, wrong. in any sense. maybe i'm too young for this
love comes back. i used to control it last time. but now i just cant.
i dun know where it will lead me too. but i only hope love happens
though it will hurt for sure.i will risk. for once more
goodnite&good bye(:
xx
